The life of a freaKing Crazy Dude

2010-01-03T22:27:00.000-08:00

Rain...

2009-11-18T06:50:00.000-08:00

Unfortune...today i nearly die!!!!

hahahas... today.... the rains fall like bloody hell...

many tree been thunder down... many car i saw... being heavy trees knock down..[live]

at Genting Klang when i drive alone back to wangsa melawati school..

i saw nth...those rain and wind blow too strong

i cant saw any car was infront anot...

suddenly i saw [sheng heng] de papan... fly by and drop and knock the car behind of me..

so qi gekk... xDDD lucky not my car... me so scare that time... while cant see front...

i thinking... wonder what will come next to knock down my car.. xD

when wanna reach school for exam...

a big flood nearby... i dint realize... cus rain too big...

i think that time i in hurry... cus goin time to exam 5 minute more...

i goes 70/mh bah... when drive over the flood... my car unbalance... and it automatic drive to left side.... then i quicky round the stering to right side and break...

wow... like drift... hahaha.... scare me... lucky that small road no car pass by... if not...

bloody thing will happen..

GoD... u let me survive today... i own ya a life...

after today... i will take good care of my self and not do hurt my self anymore...

BananA.... cheeR uP... you THE besT

Ooop.. i think after today de big bloody rains falls day...

i can sense...the 2012 is coming soon...is real coming soon not the movie idiot..

2012 i know is true to our earth... no much time left for me to do what i wish to do...

haha... tell u what... im going to CHINA soon...

mum today tell me de...This year end or next year's chinese new year bah..

wakaka... winter days again... i love snow... in my life... i saw twice snow before..

once in korean , once in bei jing..

yeeehaaaaaaaaaa... wish me luck for my spm tomolo...

2009-11-17T11:44:00.000-08:00

My life become more and more deadly...

isit my life is been everything accure for bing like this?

Begin i been born out... is that it my life gone though jus by setting by like this...

Getting bored of my life...

i really cant find out any reason i need to be staying outta there...

I always get thinking... how should i would have a happy life?

how do i can get it?

i jus want being my self.. that all i want...

but..now i realize... want you most wanted to be... it bloody hard success...

human...

to be a human...is easy... but... although the long way to go...

human... is the most more problem thing...

many problem will getting out there...

family..

friends..

love..

$$..

work..

ofcouse, u not make the problem out.. but it is problem make it out..

in these 5 important thing.... i most care about and most treat with true love..

there happen problem in these 2 day...

$$ and work... i most wont care about in these life i been...

but the most other 3 thing... important in my life.... destroy...

actually tomolo should be a very important day...

what im doin now? guess wat? im no mood at all..

i really hope tat..... 2012 is true...

atleast that time i die in peace...

nothing i would worry about...

2009-11-16T06:48:00.000-08:00

My Babe

sorry that every time i been sad...

only used ya...

cus... i really do hope guitar can absorb my sadness..

once again... 冬季恋歌-banana

banana 心碎了

心碎就是深深爱着的人给过你无数朦胧的期待，却又在最后把所有的期待亲手抹去；

心碎就是听到深爱的人亲口拒绝之后，一瞬间仿佛置身冰窖一样手脚冰凉，接着是抑制不住的浑

身颤抖和喷涌而出的泪水；

心碎就是万籁俱寂的漫漫长夜里，听到自己心碎开的声音；

心碎就是经过漫长的一个人独自疗伤后，面对现实无奈的接受；

心碎就是一个生活加给你的过程。虽然痛苦，但是熬过之后，能让人更坚强的面对生活，

更理智的看待感情。

心碎也是生活馈赠的一样特殊的经历。只有最炽热的爱，全情投入乃至生命一般的爱，

才会催生这样的情感。拥有过一次，你就会更加智慧地去爱，爱人，爱自己……

2009-11-14T08:53:00.000-08:00

Never knew this time would come
always wondered when it would be me
When it would be us....
But deep inside, faith and hope,
Yes, these assured.....
Always dreamed, always prayed,
and yes, hoped this day would come...
Look into your eyes, and see a reflection of you love,
your commitment, your presence,
and yes, to hear those words,
I love you.....

Nothing can be greater
Nothing more strong
Than the love I have for you
This will be forever
This will be a bond

The one thing I have
That is worth more than gold
The love I have for you
Will stand strong

As long as I have you
As long as this love is true
I shall always be in happy bliss
Holding on with all my might
Floating in this happy sight

Yes its true "I love you"
Forever and ever
With all I have
With all I am
I love you

I remember when we first met each other
Clicked auomatically you was in the car..
and i was kind of scared cause I never felt this way
I wanted to be with you every single day
You always called and made me laugh when I was make fun on you...
and somehow you made me smile when I was feelin so nervous..
Finally you told me you had feelings for me..not really la jus i felt.. xD
The way you described it, I was feeling the same thing
The way you held my hand and walk in though the cinema..
The things you said had me laughing to myself while I was on the movie..
the feeling I had for you went from a crush to a rush to where I always put u above
And now all I can say is... I think Im really 100% inlove with my bloody true heart on you..

Well..love story of mine for today was finish up...
today i really hav a great day... really awesome and happy...
i meet up someone i love today...
if caant meet up.. i really regret forever..
hahahas... today we went to see 2012...
hmmm... actually wan bring her go tropicana city mall de... but there look jam..
then change journey to E@curve...whoa... tis mall is also part of the curve... no much people wanted to walk here... alll come to is for the cinema... wakaka... cus quite nice for here..
while buying the ticket... dam many people... i tot i really no chance to buy it.. cus... there were so many show of 2012 but all red colour word... mean sold out...
but i think we are lucky pair... while i asking the staff... 2012 which time still left sit... wat time also cant...all seat all sold out.. jus left 3.10pm left most front corner side de 2 couple sit.. so i take it... xD 1st time seat those seat... not bad.. xD
kindly... after while waiting time passed.. i bring her goes THe curve , ikano...
while we hang on the japanese shop... those thing were very cute... i know i would present u what thing liao... i ng hou yi si buy today.. so.. u will get it next time.. xD tomolo i go there again... hehes.. buy buy buy xD curi go the curve buy it out.. xDD
errrrrrrrr.... today is my 1st time like tat let people grap my hand de tat kind feeling... so remind back.. so sweet.. xD pai sehhh.. xDi also 1st time grap her like tat.. xD
haha...
when 2012 really come it reality... the people i wish to be with... is u... i would wanted to trying take u excape jus awesome that the show was... wakaka...
finger tried... dun wan wrote le... tata

AhhHHh..Banana ahh..

2009-11-01T10:45:00.000-08:00

Mr vayne... why u so happy uhhh... eeeee.... dun wan say ... heart know then okay le.. xDDD

actually i really do shy de la... jus like tis pig> hahas hehes... pinky jor.. xDD

You’re my angel
My lullaby
Forever yours
Until I die

You’re my angel
My sweetest thought
Eternally yours
My dear angel, the only one I've got.

The day is bright and you are too.
I need to say that I love you.

When the dark wind blows and many fear;
It's good to know that you are near.

The more I learn, the more I know
That in my heart, your love does grow

I love you so deeply,
I love you so much,
I love the sound of your voice,
And the way that we chit chat,

I love your warm smile,
And your kind, thoughtful way,
The joy that you bring,
To my life everyday,

I love you today,
As I have from the start,
And I'll love you forever,
With all of my heart,

I love you.

really long time no touch it.... xDDD

2009-10-28T07:06:00.000-07:00

七里香- by noob banana xDD

really long time boh touch Guitar le...

today bored bored at home... nothing to do... try play har some song..

most i remember de... is tis song only... other.... like lap sap throw away...

im thinking y i stop guitar last time... i could be pro if i wanteD to...

haiz... my life have been going many wrong decission...

haiz... lets hear it...

WhaT wrong witH mE...

2009-10-27T08:53:00.000-07:00

i dunno what my mind was thinking of...

what to do...

it jus come suddenly...

how foolish i could say those silly thing to her...

ouch...what am i talking about...

it cant be... i fall up to someone?

nonono...when the time i write out those poem... the feeling it jus come by..

i dunno i dunno..im speechless....

maybe i scare u jus... what i can say is jus a simple "sorry" nothing much i can do...

fall on someone i jus so easyly...

what should i do..

yup.. it kind of long time dint hav this feeling....

strongest and strongest..

i could have the missing your's feeling... yes i do..

days are passing up so fast...

jus knowing ya not more then 1 week... it jus bout 5 day...

OMG... story have been came out again.... i been loving people by so fast and also dint meet before...

how could it happening...it happening twice in my life... somemore they are bestie...

i really dunno that i would fall for you when i starteD to talk to you and knowing u...

your appear....really do shining my heart...aaaaaa.......

what im saying..stop it STOP it banana...you are losing ur control...watch ur self!!!!

yes i do...

i jus being control by my soul...im know... it is not possible...

so that... i really dint think much further way...

when i know you... i really do jus wanna be ur bestie...

nothing much...so that i surely wont ask for more...

let ya knowing me that i fall for you... maybe is a gooD thing...

so that i would be able to think any futher thing...

i am thinking...why i would fall for u...

what i interesting on ya...

errrr....

you hav a kind heart...yes that is..

pure love toward ur ex...and also such as pure heart..

awww...

most important is you are friendly and kind...

These few day....midnight....was passing so slowly...i was missing ur angle shout...

in the dream... ya really do came out... i was awake...cant belive it..

yet... i was unexpect tat i really fall for ya...really..

nothing much i could say and nothing much i could do...

for ya..."sorry" i don't wan too... ahx..

dun worry be happy... i wont like a ghost bump keep anoying ya..

hehes..

what i want to do... is jus keep on be ur bestie...

it nice to be ur bestie as i know so far...

sorry sweetie... for being so crime...

im know imposible i could tackle ya...

just let me sometime...

i think i would able to pushing out the feeling...

Jamey...

ouch... jus find out tis song.... look like awesome... i love old song... xDDD

jus like my feeling... xDD hahas

What she is to me..

2009-10-27T03:47:00.000-07:00

Just as the bees love a flower's pollen,
Is the love for her that I can’t stop falling.
Like a tidal wave caused by our precious moon,
Her love somehow overpowers me yet so soon.
Could it be my love for her is deeply true?
Since thinking about her is all that I ever do?

Like the wind to a tree is so refreshing,
My angel, My queen to me she is everything.
Just as breath-taking as the first sunset,
She is the most wonderful girl I ever met.
As my love for her grows stronger each day,
I can't imagine living my life any other way.

if love comes in colors,
I choose blue,
if love comes in flowers,
I’ll choose rose,
if love comes in songs,
I’ll think of choosing blues,
But if love should come in human beings,
I’ll definitely not think twice before
I’ll choice you!
because.....You are my choice

2009-10-26T08:56:00.000-07:00

Nothing specialist today.. 7am sleep... cus dunno y cant sleep... then doin blog thing lu...

make jor tis blog 4 hour lehhh... so hard... hahas.. but nvm... me see only jek... but someone know also..
ermm.. it kindly tireD day... afternoon 2pm plus... giv yang fan me fetch him... then i say i haven't eat lunch... then we held my lunch at BRJ...

toDay we were calling out because our big boss... love problem... his lui.... something happen..

hahas...i just can say... "Don't worry Be HAPPY" as like thhat silly smile always no matter how... lols... hahass..

NOw days... i was interesteD to call up someone silly.... issshhh...
no why... xDDD
cus she silly loh...

kindly HAPPY to chat with her... cus wont giving harm...and very cheerfull...

great to know u dude... xDDD

i like her sound... so chamfull and sometime it was cute to hear it...

well... thats all...

The Gift From France-Paris

2009-10-26T08:17:00.001-07:00

Gift from my stupid big sister that back from paris luuu...

Prince sword by using in the castle...cool xDDD it cost euro20=RMalmost 100

My 香嫔...delivery from Paris...hahas

world's largest and most exp biscuit store..and also chocolate..

2009-10-25T07:40:00.000-07:00

see this pig...is a GIFT to ya... it fatty+ chubby+cute... and most important...

Is the pig face as like euuuu~ xDDD hahas...

thX me ya...

ouch... today someone said... wan check it out my blog wohhh...

make some new thing out 1st....

-o-

ahhhhx.. IT sunday today...

big sister will reaching airport at 2pm... me and mum were go to fetch her up... cus she said many stuff to take...

finally she back!

1st thing she most miss is... herozaii... omg... how come... not human no.1 1st? xDDD

ishhh... upsad luuu like tat...

eeee... still say "fan ka chan"

mummy-LV beg , and full leather purse..

small sis- "hiong suiix" and paris tower..

dad- leather belt..

me....

me....... my favourite stuff.. prince sword and champaige.

she buy alot paris chocolate.... very exp de wohhh... and also paris most exp de biscuit.. hahas..

okie.... these few day... know a silly buddy...

she cute...

she lame...

she attress..

she tall...

she pretty...

she fat...[she said so]

hahas... nice to know of her too.... kindly many thing to spear with her...

feeling no stress by knowing her....

abit specialist lohhh... wakaka...

well... we are bestie now..... she said gehh jus few days only... xDDDD

i also treat her bestie too...

well... tried to typing jorr... night night..

2009-10-07T09:55:00.000-07:00

ISHHH。。。。

long time no blogging le..... feeling lazy.... hahaha

hmmm... today nothing special...

hmmm.... janice a..... dun moody jor laa.....

everything should be fine... =D woohoooooo...

tis week pmr weekenD.... sis no school.... anoying at home... =D lucky i got went out~

hahaha....

gooD luck for u vivian in ur pmR

1.52A.M

2009-09-23T10:52:00.000-07:00

Jus back from suBanG JaYa... =="

ishhh... so freak~........

hmmm.... you.. see... eh pei xia... this time you no comment le hor?

i reallly do NO put you Aeroplane leh...=D

1.20pm wake up today... so sleepy... cus last night boil tat taiwan drama till end...4.10AM sleep...

after eating lunch... bored bored dei.... cus of moody... wanna out...

no much friend left... haha... u lucky i choose u out pei xia... woohoooooo... =D

5pM i reach ur house leh...[subang-dam far wehhh~] wait u half and hour there.... really so da xiu jie lo u....

hmmm...actually we aim for going 1u o tropicana city mall...but stupid jimui look like wanted to go sunway.. so like sunway meh u...always go not sienz meh...

but atlast we go to cenileisure mall...or called e-mall

we decide see G-Force babe =D started 6.50pm...

this movie... not bad... funny hamster... =D

eeeeeeeeee.... sei pei xia... so wanted keep fit... dun wan dinner... u think u r goD? all the day jus eat once..

then 8pm++ reach wangsa maju BRJ... meet yang , francis n hong...

yam har cha... that pei xia look dam bored there... then decide early go out from there lo...

she say wohhh.... when see them... the hand were shake... shake like hell wohhh... so scare meh =D hahhahhahaha but she da busy de lo... in 1 night reply 100++ message... more hardworking then business girl =="

ouch... 10pm like that... we go desa park city walk walk.... she saiD she dint go there be4 and wanted to check it out... wow.... she saiD very beutifull there... wakaka... i intro de place sure awesome de la...

at there walk har... chat har... like that also untill 11.30 jor... then send her back le...

be4 back... went to nearest her house de mamak... eat something 1st.... dam de lo... i havent eat dinner cus of ur keep fit plan... =="make me eat at mamak... t(",)t hahaha

then after that went back lu~tireD.. =D

11.34pm broken heart

2009-09-22T08:33:00.000-07:00

Wanna kick it with me?
Cool, just be yourself, that's all I can ask of you.
Wanna keep my attention.
Keep talking even if I don't look interested,
'Cause I’m looking at your lips and thinking about kissing you.
Wanna see me happy?
then smile at me for no reason, I’ll be content and curious all at once.
Wanna get me bodied?
Then put on Beyonce, 'cause that's my jam!
Wanna be my hero?
Then hold me when i cry and don't say a word,
'Cause I’m thinking about how lucky I am that GOD let me find you.
Wanna kiss my lips?
Then hold my hands and hug me tight let me know there is some type of love between us,
'Cause all I want is to feel secure.
Let me know that after the storm,
When everyone leaves me high and dry that you will be there
With a bottle of Aquafina ready to help me restore my world.
At the end of the day I’m gonna need you.
But all I want is to know that you are there for me.
LET IT enDs....

3AM..

2009-09-21T12:00:00.000-07:00

wooT... Jus went back home from Tropicana city... dating wif both sister tonight...
hehe...actually we should at 1u watch movie de...but... dam fully people...
then decide bougth jor sis wanted de boots from ZARA shop... swt... it so exp... almost RM300... crazy... after bought... we went to nearby 1u de tropicana city...
it is new opened de shopping mall... there's GSC cinema... were new.. and less
people... nice..
so we decide to watch THE ugly true...

actually it is 18 age above de...
my small sis only form 2... lol....
my big sister at home help my little sis make up till mature...like yes man... =="
this show were so nice n funny...
teaching people in love... but as last ownself in love with her...=D
i love the part when she n him at the FLYING balloon time and dancing time...
woot...
asking:"why did you in love with me"
answered:"how did i know piece of shit of me"
"i just know I LOVE YOU"
then bloody strong kiss....wowwwwwwww.....
hahahaha....
actually i wanted to see G-force de... sisters dun want... nvm lo... but i also love this movie also what..
thanks for lovely big sister... belanja eat 2 time today =D mwahx....

3 of us...

emo... =D

missing you...

who am I thinking? -__-

2009. 2009

2009-09-20T09:08:00.000-07:00

Ishhh...moring slept on 9a.M wake on 1.30p.M

wow...my sleep time was changed again... =D

yuP, im a monster... hahahaha

as u seen.... today IM kinda HOME ALONE again...

1sT time at house ownself dabao food eat so many time...

somemoRe there were not near.... ishhh...

Actually today also wanted to go out wet de...

but someone scare me FFK again... dun want out wohhh...

but he/she really cant out gehhhh... suan le bah... seem to be im kinda so got heart wohhh...

nowsday i eat MCD till CRAZY man... to9 my dinner mcD again....

afternoon i haD my HOME MAKE FRIED RICE by..... is mE..

wow... delicious.... it is too pretty... that why i dint show it out... wakaka =D

today is a nice day oh... 20.09.2009 but today only got leng zai date me out...

SORRY boss.... to HAn Qiang n Wan Tan mEE... not i dun wan out wif u guys...

jus that... i dun wan go KLCC jek... hEhe... so many place can go... but why wanna choose KLCC wohhh.... and i now dun wanted to go there liao...

soRRy ya....guys...

Today i dint went out wet...i so "guai" leh.. home alone in 24 hour.... wat i do?

sure boil drama la!!! but today i not boil hong kong TVB drama leh...

Guess what... ermmmm.... Taiwan drama o.... i saw astro going to show up after RAYA...

it look like not bad... then see PPS... it is... [痞子英雄]

I see jor 7 episode leh... each episode 1 hour leh... not bad... dam yeng also,.,,,

Mummy them 11pm only reach home nia...

they hang till so late back....forget me this son le.. they got HERO zaii enuf le hor?

Go where also bring mai "IT" not "hiM'' hehe.... =D

aikZ... tomolo morning neeD to play basketball wif them le....

i need burst theM off... wakaka... but sure cant.. t(",)t

2009-09-19T16:27:00.000-07:00

I'm so sad.
and nothing can make me feel better.
haiz.
i laugh,i smile,i being crazy just like normal.
but the pain in my heart no one know.
i miss you so much.
i need you to be with me right now.
my heart feel so pain.
but you never know.never care.
i can't stop my mind to think about you.
haiz.
why i'm so stupid?really dumb..really useless.
i hate myself.really hate myself!!!

wow... its 7am now...

2009-09-19T16:16:00.000-07:00

omG...i have no sleep at all!!!!

getting crazy and crazy.... where can family not here... i been so notti..

ishhhhhhh....

but cant feel the tired...jus now hang till 12am only back home...

then hor... most funny is... 12.40am drive out nearby mcd da bao back home eat...

lol... thx to SOMEONE... pui me chat so long...

aikz... sorry to put ur bao beii aeroplane ahhhhh.... really sorry...

i not mean it de actually... jus my fren... ahhhhh.... sorry....

i know u still having forgiv me... but hope ya forgive me as soon as possible...

pls let me date ya again... i wont repeat again =D

now 7.22am now dunno wan do what...

stupid doggie[HERO zai] follow family go cousin house stay... if not i sure pull u out jog wif me...

hmmm.... dunno y still cant sleep leh... ishhh.... jus now eat de mcd still full...

morning later needed cook anot leh?

hate cooking... =D

missing someone...

guess so... someone wont miss me le..

isit im already dissapear in her heart...

is that so?

saD...

2009-09-19T02:46:00.001-07:00

woohooooooooooooo......home alone in 2 days...

today cousin birthday party.... located at BENTONG...

eeeeeeeeee....i lazy go.... whole family going n stay there 1 night....

but will lack of me... cus i would like to home alone ^^V

weeeeeee.....

lucky got car... tonight... go wet lo.... =D

2009-09-18T01:15:00.001-07:00

I want to give up.
I want to throw it all away.
There is so much pain, hardship, and brokeness.
My life seems unorganized.
The worries, and hurt just floods within me.
A weakness, take over. All my hurt is hidden.
Hiding, behind a smile.
A joy, that brigthens a day.
A love that overtakes evil.
The reason why I never give up,
for those who areunable to withhold a their own.
Their own burden, a stand firm, for one day..
My smile and joy will give someone streght.
Will give them inspiration, the will to carry on.
Even when the time is tough, I know, there is love.

You Found mE

2009-09-17T03:33:00.000-07:00

goshhhhhhhh... i kinda nowsday love up this song "You found ME" by thE FREY

actually got meaning gehhh.... =D

woottttt..... whole day sit at home... wat can i do?

walk here walk there....

free free dei see those note that someone gave me gehhh...

if other note i wont see de tim... =D

but see see har... someone writing was so nice also wut... =="

Thx for prepare for me...

erm... i wanna FCUK our big BOSS again...

today give me a answer that wanted to work and dun wan go sunway jor...

dam dam dam dam dam de loh....always FFK...

now how... lack people go sunway le loh!!!!!

haiz...no worry bah... second big boss settle every thing =D

when the time pass minute by minute... really dam bored...

walk har walk har go to study room find a old style cyber shot cam...

play har take hill photo =D

take jor but need washed the picture... cus not digital cam,,,haha

it kind of good cam...can take so far n clear de pic...

i love tis old style cam~mwahxx...look cool babe..

2nd pose..

3rd pose yeah!

and the last for today is....my lovely song...

you found me..

I found God
On the corner of First and Amistad
Where the west
Was all but won
All alone
Smoking his last cigarette
I said, "Where you been?"
He said, "Ask anything".

Where were you
When everything was falling apart?
All my days
Were spent by the telephone
It never rang
And all I needed was a call
It never came
To the corner of First and Amistad

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me

In the end
Everyone ends up alone
Losing her
The only one who's ever known
Who I am
Who I'm not, who I wanna be
No way to know
How long she will be next to me
[ The Fray Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me

Early morning
The city breaks
I've been callin'
For years and years and years and years
And you never left me no messages
Ya never send me no letters
You got some kinda nerve
Taking all my world

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Where were you? Where were you?
Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me
Why'd you have to wait?
To find me, to find me

My heart is waiting you...

2009-09-16T09:18:00.000-07:00

No matter how far you are or where you are
No matter how much space between us
But I will wait for you with hope in my heart
My love still lonely and search for your soul
Yes, it is miserable when you are not close to me
I am sure my world is better when I am in your arms
My love for you is pure, divine and grows sure in me
Your love has no condition on me and sets me free
Waiting for you to feel your gentle touch
Waiting for you to hear your loudy voice
Waiting for you to get your huge hug
Waiting for you to get your deep kiss
Yes, I find all my happiness in loving you
No matter when or how soon you will come back
But my heart is waiting for

to someone VIP

Dota和诺儿

2009-09-16T00:39:00.000-07:00

yesterday, i at somewhere saw this post...it meanfull... so i copy it... hehe...
DOTA really so important? =D

Dota和诺儿

Dota比赛中场休息，我忙里偷闲用Msn聊天，
这个时间，没有几个人在线
，我与其中的一个女孩聊得来，她告诉我她叫诺儿，
我说我叫宝宝。这当然不是我的真名，
只不过这样更容易哄女孩子。诺儿给我的感觉很单纯，很可爱，她总是呵呵的傻笑。

我今年22岁，他们都说我有病，
放着好好的工作不干，去打什么专业Dota，
可我是一个自由散漫惯了的人，
父母自有高额退休金，我住着自己的公寓。
我热爱Dota，我的理想是亚洲冠军，
为了它，我可以放弃一切。
我发现诺儿上网很有规律，而我也喜欢和她胡吹乱侃，
别的我不敢说，哄小女生我最在行，尤其是诺儿这种单纯的。
我喜欢气她，我总说她傻，她就回给我一个气呼呼的小脸，其实我是想说她傻的可爱。

他们说我是网上的害虫，因为我总是哄骗网上的小姑娘走到现实中来做我的女朋友
新鲜劲过了之后在SAY白白。
我不是自夸我长得多么帅，我只是在陈述事实。
我知道时机到了，我对诺儿说：“我们见面吧！”
在此之前，我已经在网上叫她一个多月的老婆了。

我坐在KFC六等她，心中暗自祈祷她不要太恐龙。
9点整，一个女孩推门而进，她似乎是披着阳光进来的，
好耀眼的光芒，那一刻我以为我见到了天使。
我呆呆地看者她在我对面坐下，
她梳着两条小辫子，额前的碎发泛着点点的光晕，我闻得到她身上力士香皂和苹果沐浴乳的味道，
她未施粉黛的脸上还带着点稚气。

“你是诺儿？”我问她。

她咬着可乐吸管“恩”了一声。

“你成年了吗？”我怎么感觉自己跟诱骗未成年人一样呢？

诺儿听了这话，抬起头盯者我，她的眼睛很大，她特认真地说：“我下个月就过二十岁生日了。”

我不知道这个世界上有没有一见钟情，
但我知道我对诺儿的这种感觉是从未有过的，很强烈，也很独特。
我不知道这个比喻是否恰当，但我就是觉得她像个粉嫩嫩的草莓蛋糕，可爱到让人想咬却又舍不得。
我就像被施了法术一般，话都有些说不连贯，
恍惚之中，看到她朝我微笑，阳光溢出来，溅落，星星点点。

我用尽了一切我所能想得出的方法才算把她“骗”到手，在我牵起她的手的那一刻，
我告诉自己，她是我的女人，一个我要保护的女人。

我照例天天打Dota，但没忘了上msn和她聊天，
偶尔在泡几个MM，我几乎天天都能收到她的留言：“宝宝你要乖，不要泡MM，天冷要加衣。”

我们战队顺利地进入了前八强，今天是总决赛，
午休，我看着干巴巴的饭盒，没有丝毫食。
走出赛区，看见大门口蹲坐着一个熟悉的身影，走过去看是诺儿。
我拍拍她，她显然吓了一跳，见是我，舒了一口气，
把一个保温饭煲递到我手里。
我接过后，她慌忙把手藏到身后，
可是我还是看见她手上被烫的水泡。

盒里的饭有点凉了，我问她：“等很久了了？”

“对啊，你手机关掉了。”她嘟着嘴。

“不是告诉你不要来嘛。来，让老公抱抱，累了吧？”我有点心疼。

“我不来你又饿肚子，你一点都不乖，还挑食。”

我吃着盒里的饭，诺儿坐在我身边，紧张地问：“好吃吗？好吃吗？”
我大口大口的扒着饭，说实话，挺难吃的，
可是我能想象得出这个连袜子都不会洗的女孩是怎
样笨手笨脚地为我做第一顿饭。
心中是久违了的感动。我笑着说：“老婆的爱心午餐当然好吃了，你看我不是全部都吃光了吗？”

诺儿听了一脸满足地笑着，站起来就走。

“宝贝你去哪儿啊？”我问她。

“回家呗。“

“别急，我带你去一个地方。”我把她领进赛区，我从没领女孩儿见过朋友，更别说是赛区。
队友们见到诺儿都好奇极了，“小嫂子、小嫂子”地叫着，弄得她脸蛋都通红的，
队友们都跑来跟我打趣，我心里明白，我是真的爱上她了。

msn上，我问她，“诺儿，你嫁给我好吗？”
她还是呵呵地傻笑，“好啊。以前别人说什么要娶我，我觉得特恐怖，但是我现在突然想嫁人了。”
嗯，诺儿，相信我，等我攒够钱让你做最风光的新娘，我们就结婚。

虽然我们队没有拿到第一，但对于我们这支刚组成不久的队伍来说，
全省第二的成绩已经是非常好的了，所以我决定继续努力，非打第一不可。

Dota的比赛越来越多，我也越来越忙，我忘了多久没想过诺儿了，
我总是比赛到很晚，偶尔在msn上看到她，她也总是很沉默，
我不知道她怎么了。现在想起来，才知道是自己不对，
因为我从来没有关心过她是不是开心，过得好不好。

一天，
她说：“你能陪我说会话吗？”

我说：“不行啊，我现在在联系比赛正在等电话。而且马上要开赛了。”

“就一会儿也不行吗？”

“诺儿乖。”

“Dota对你来说真的很重要吗？”

“是。”

“那我呢？难道我就一点不重要吗？”

“也重要。”

“那我和Dota哪个更重要呢？”

“Dota。”我没有骗她。

很久，她的msn头像都没有再晃动。

几天后，我看到她给我的留言：“我不知道能不能等到自己比dota更重要的那一天了，以后你要照顾好自己．．．．．．”
我觉得她像是在说傻话，没看完就关了msn。

几个月后，打完dota回到家已经是精疲力竭了，倒在床上一动不想动。
这时手机响起来，我不想接，可它却响个没完没了。
我一看是诺儿的号，就没好气地接起来说：“不是叫你这几天别打电话给我吗？你不知道我有多累……”

电话那一端传来一阵怒吼：“……你他 [ 粗话自动过滤系统 ] 还算不算是男人啊？”

不是诺儿，我一愣，“你谁呀你？”

“你甭管我是谁，明天诺儿出殡，你要也算个人，就来看她最后一眼。”

诺儿？出殡？什么跟什么呀？我还想再问下，电话戛然挂断。

忽然一股恐怖感占据了我，我拼命的回拨，很久才有人接起来，是个很苍老的声音，“你找……”

“诺儿呢？”

“她……不在了……”声音里明显带着哭腔。

我的脑袋轰的一下，难道，诺儿她真的出事了？

哪天，我看见诺儿被他们抬了出来，她脸上还带着微笑，可天使般的微笑再也泛不出光晕了，
诺儿的朋友看我的眼神分明是仇视的，恨不得吃了我。
诺儿的妈妈告诉我，诺儿有血小板减少症，家里人什么都不让她做，
生怕她不小心弄破了手指或是什么地方，血流不止。
原以为治好了，可后来不知怎的，血小板又突然下降，心脏功能也开始衰竭。
前几天她突然精神很好，我们都明白那意味着什么，
她说她想听听你的声音，打电话给你，可是关机，
她说你一定在比赛呢。有人说去找你，可诺儿不让，她说比赛对你很重要，
她怕你生气，说着说着自己就哭了，我们也都跟着哭，
她说肯定有一天你会明白，她比dota重要，可她等不到了……诺儿妈妈有抹起眼泪来。

我靠在医院太平间的墙上，想哭没泪。

我好几天没打dota了，呆呆地看着诺儿的msn形象，
自从诺儿走了以后，我整个人好像被抽走了力量。身和心都特别疲惫。

我打开诺儿的msn才知道，里面只有我一个人的号。

我注意到她的资料里有一个网址，打开是个心情驿站，有各种各样的故事，其中有篇文章的署名是诺儿。

“不敢想象，我就那么不可救药地爱上了他。
我喜欢他的温柔，也喜欢他假装凶巴巴的样子，
我想如果有一天他向我求婚，我一定会嫁给他。

我最近很不开心，我喜欢听他说话，
可他却连话都不愿意和我说了，因为他很忙，他要打dota。
他再也不叫我小傻瓜了，他从没说过爱我，也没送过花给我，可我还是喜欢他。

有一天我告诉他江边涨水了，他说以后陪我看，我很高兴
有一天我看见一只很可爱的小狗，他答应我，我们以后也会有一只，也叫诺儿，我很高兴。
他说过几天陪我去看电影，放风筝，我特别开心，
虽然这些都还没有实现，我相信总有一天会的。但我恐怕等不了那么久了。

他说dota比我重要，我没生气，因为这是实话，
可是我很伤心，所以我偷偷地哭了。
我想我还不够坚强，我做的还不够好，
医生说我过不到下一个生日了，也就是4月4日，
他还不知道我的生日呢！不过这也没关系。

我又虚弱了，刚打了几个字就很累，真的很没用。

我知道他有很多女朋友，
这样也好，我走了，他不会伤心
虽然我是那样想嫁给他，
我一直盼他送我玫瑰，哪怕只一支，
以前有很多人送我，可我没收，因为那代表爱情，
我想我可能等不到他送我的那一天了，所以我偷偷买了一朵送给自己，
我想我写什么他永远都看不见了，所以我可以随心所欲地敲打文字，
我刚才打电话给他，但他关机了。
那个讨厌的声音一直重复‘对不起，您拨打的电话已关机’
我好想，真的好想再和他说说话，哪怕就一分钟，听听他的声音也好，
我们好久都没见面了，我每天都好想他。
真没出息，又哭了，
唉，其实我真的好放心不下他，
他玩游戏时间长了眼睛会疼，我买了眼药水却没法给他，
还有，他挑食……”

文章没有写完，想是她累了，结尾有一个FlasLASH，我点击Play，优雅的声音在空空的房间里回荡。

“静静地陪你走了好远好远/
连眼睛红了都没有发现/
听着你说你现在的改变/看着我依然最在你的笑脸/
这条旧路依然没有改变/以往的每次路过都是晴天/
想起我们有过的从前/泪水就一点点开始蔓延……每当我闭起眼/
我总是看见/
你的诺言全部都会实现/
我亲过你的脸/你已经不在我身边/
我还是祝福你过的好一点/ 断开的情线/我不要做断点/只想杂睡前听见你的蜜语甜言……”

Flash制作得有点粗糙，可我那憋了很久的眼泪还是滴了下来，画面的结尾还有一行行的小字。

“想听你说爱我，一声也好；

想接受你送的玫瑰，一朵也好；

想再多点时间爱你，哪怕只一天；

可是现在，我的手都已经好颤抖，好想再见你一面。”

我一个人做在漆黑的房间里，终于大哭起来，
我就那样错过了你，我最爱的女人
还来不及宠你，还来不及实现诺言，还来不及让你做我最美丽的新娘。
该死的dota，我连你最后一面都没见上，我真该死。
是的，我终于明白了你是最重要的，可惜你不能在等我了。

今年清明没下雨，我放弃了dota，做了白领，我一定会要你做我最风光的新娘。

“生日快乐，小傻瓜。”

每日礼拜我都会来这里，我只想和你说说话，
纯白饿墓碑宛如你的纯洁。
微风像你的发丝轻佛过我的脸，想念我那依然最爱的你的笑脸。

朋友、家人都惊讶于我的改变
，我不抽烟了，不打dota了，不上网了，
养了一只和你一样可爱的小狗，
像当初我们说好的那样，叫它诺儿，
我只想再和你说说话，再送你最美的玫瑰

12/09/09 my peacefull legs.... eeeeeee....

2009-09-12T08:27:00.000-07:00

hmmmm hmmmm, such a fucking tired day today....

4am sleep.. 8.15am wake hang till midnight...

morning:8.115am waked up... 1st thing i saw....message from hai yang...

boss...mana u....fetch me pls....

lolz...blur blur dei jus wake... jus send a message.. i coming... haha...

let him wait 30 minute....in this 30 minute i bath , brush teeth n bla bla only drive out..

haha....i know u wait till dam long... sorry la boss... hehe

after fetching tis hai yang... dim ji tat lok 9 hai hong only say fetch him...

then go along fetch him...

t(",)t

when reach there... OMG... jus 2 people there[francis nyong kiat]...+ we only 5 people...

feeling S1 basketball team... rusty and rusty le...

eeeeee..... but.... also ern dao.... saw a big boob.... hahahaha.... u guys wan know go know la...

next time no chance jor la... =D

when they 2 on 2.... im along walk here walk there.... refresh the mind to do not think of u le...

but still cant... try my best le.... tot burst it out on basketball will be better... but jus cant..

you been mean alot to me...

okay... we end the basketball play till 10.30am... then with hai hong n hai yang went to brj eat, drink and the last... dagei =D

dont worry... dagei jus play jor 1 and half hour then back le...

before back that hai hong say later back home bath le rest a while then wan go out time square gap lui wohhhhhhhhhhhhh..... eeee i not sure... went back home sin.. -___-"

after bath... on har on har facebook.... then important message incoming....

jom go out gap lui.... yang also on wohhh.... then i meh on too lo...

haiz.... sad case~ being the stupid driver again...

in the car... only wanted to discuss wanna go where.... 1u? midvelly? time square,SW?

atlast....someone say dam long time no go ts,sw jor.... dunno those seafood how look jor.. lolS..

ouch... then i have to turn the stering to east coast... berjaya time square babe... +_+""

actually i rather pay more oil money to 1u...

1st, no need trafic jam, cus the road will very smooth...

2nd, there de parking dam cheap la... RM1.. park at stupid time square also RM10 jor..

3rd...BABI banyaknya... walao... really many on sat.... for my malay friends.. <<<>

4th...dam sesak loh.... n walk also sesaknya..... got aircond = no gehhhhh...atleast 1u wont like tat lo...

1 more thing... PAVILLION... not more any high class le la.... dam much those bla bla sesak at front door for wat jek... ying sui sai...

anyway...when reach ts... and we 3 walk walk walk.... about 15 minute time...

yao ng yao gam kiu o..... from behind we heard someone shout... wei yang!

then we turn... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh~ what the hack... mellissa... how come she here...

1u kaki gam kiu meet dao at TS... =="all like fu fu him him her geh... =D lol... but me n hai hong got talk to her la... most worst that hai yang la... not even wanted to talk to her...

after together walk wif her bout 20 minute time... we wanted to go SW... n mel wanted

to wait her fren come... then we 3 comes to normal le...

yao ng yao gam kiu again.... at the TS brige.. i meet up my heng dai... kepong kia... =D

long time dint meet him up... gam kiu meet him... he wif 1 leng lui n a leng zai...

me n him by the way walk to SW we keng har keng har... i droped hong n yang... haha...

we both chui chui har shui =D

when time passed... i break up wif kepong kia n i miss his leng lui =D joking la...

i jus miss 1 fellow jek... jus LING!

erm, SW dam sesak la.... cant breath...

then we walk walk har then move up to PAVILLION...

dam heng lo... so many so many bah bah bah... sesak at outside door...

t(",)t

walk har PAV... then all of us hungry jor tim...

then decide went to wong kok eat mum mum lohhhhhhhhh....

weeeeeee...i order a pork chop cheese rice n nai cha,,,

got reason de... today saw alot pork chop ma... hahaha

took some stupid PIC!

unhappy face! FCUK =D

laught ge lin ah? =="

cool babe!

apa ini? =D

stare what jek? =D

look aren't deliscous leh..

sedap ni...

...after eating.. we sit here dam long for chit chat.. =="

suddenly phone rang... melissa: 你们在哪啊？我又一个人了...

lol... what to do... also almost 6pm le... needed to walk back TS too...

then walk walk walk walk again... stomach full le feeling dun wanna walk leh...

haiz.. then take a long time go back TS find tat babi mel... =D

wow,,,, grats for hai hong.... mel say april was coming n reach soon..

hai hong say got chance to see april le...

but wait dam long... almost 40 minute we wait.... haiz... actually dam sienz...

see for what jek... 1 girl jek ma...

when the time come... she came le.. with her bF..

ouch... is that her...? from her pic dam big different la...

look so...eeeeeeeeee... dun wan see... we 3 in heart know la...

150-153cm only?

hai hong say wont visit her blog again... LOLS

yang has no comment.. =D

for me... see or no see also nothing special.. .human being 1 jek...

dam miss ling alot...

t.t

when we wanna when to car park after seeing tat aren't special girl..

yang say yun fang at LOW YAT!

hai hong wanted to back de... but looked to stupid yang face... we know lo...

n yang say wanna buy a pendrive too... ok lo... lazy walk... drive to low yat ... and needed to pay again.. =[ but.. is hai yang pay this time... hahahaha

when we done all stuff... n buy le hai yang staff.. see got luck meet up yun fang anot...

no luck man.... she dont wan to tell him where she was... hahaha.... from top to ground floor...

cant find her oh... haha

see his sad sad face... back luuuuuuuuu....

fucking leg is dam pain man... 9pm leh... n i still needed to drive.... need press oil de a...

really so tired la the leg....

on the way back... trafic jam alot... FCUK

my leg so pain still jam so long.... lucky is auto car....

errrrr... after sending them home... mum call up... i answered..

tell me that key hide at where... for let me in house... ahhhhhh... i got key la.. still hide meh..

but... i got a feeling that time... feel like dont wan back home sin... but i hav no wa to go wohhh.

plus that pair of leg so tired... no choice... back home on9 lo...

errrrrr..... after bath... on9 jor n see pps 1 hour... hai yang got a big problem...

i think i dont wan mention here... >"<>

francis so proud of u.... hehe.. fetch him wohhh... =D

me also want de... but my leg really cant move le... =[

then last thing i do is blogging lo... kay la... write so long jor.....

time to end... see movie... i wont so fast sleep geh... atleast 4am again =D

also needed to say... I LOVE YOU LING

oop...forgot mention something.... just now see your blog...

suddenly hear a song... i really been 1 week dint hear le... so miss it...

cus... it mean alot to me.... but no use too.... forget it bah >"<

what i can do is jus wait....

爱不疚

2009-09-10T04:53:00.000-07:00

Today...is the 5th day... ouch...

actually im still not okay....

as i always do... pretending.... it cant help anything... but u...

nowsday...im feeling u... already started to no NIAO me le...

im know im know... i should let go... cus really cant do anything...

from now on... let it be let me suffer alone >"<

jus now hear tis song... now it really been happen to me...

爱不疚

收藏在眼眸常徘徊左右爱猜到没有
愉快玩笑後能全然退後你开心就够
这种感觉太亲厚讲一千句也不够
假使讲了你听到後或会走
这种恋爱太罕有不须真正拥有
成全衷心祝福然後就放手
放手放开所有彼此更自由
放手其实我绝非爱得不够
放手豁出所有还有这个好友
已经已经足够
遥远是宇宙静静在背後去看守就够
这种感觉太亲厚讲一千句也不够
即使一刹有过冲动挽你手
这种恋爱太罕有不须真正拥有
成全多舍不得仍然是放手
放手放开所有彼此更自由
放手其实我绝非爱得不够
放手豁出所有还有这个好友
已经已经足够
放手我的牵挂找不到尽头
放手期望你幸福甚麽都有
也许爱很深厚然而我早看得透
放手至可拥有

without u...

2009-09-07T05:51:00.000-07:00

jus back from yam cha and dagei....wif a bunch of fellow... hai yang , hai hong n selem boss..

ahhhhhhx.....be with them...anytime anywhere....my brain cant even lost a minute to cant think of u

i dun wan to lose u...

pls....

u very mean it to me...

ling... i really cant handle the feeling already... im weak...

i cant force myself to pretend to lost u... i really wan u...

without u...my world they are blank....jus like live in the black and white world...

i dun wan i dun wan to lost u...pls..

lets us together settle whole stucked problem..open a way out...

we try to figure a way to solve it..

any problem we jus together face okay?

without u in my world...my appear jus mean nothing...

i cat stand alone in the hole anymore...i wanted to pull u back together...

pls..we face together okay? >"<

I need you my love
Without you I can not live
I need you my love
Without you my heart is incomplete
I need you my love
Without you my love is meaningless
I need you my love
Without you my eyes will not closed for sleep
I need you my love
Without you my words are speechless
I need you my love
Without you I am lost in this world
I need you my love
Without you I will lose my eternity
I need you my love
Without you I am weak
I need you my love
Without you I am nothing
I need you my love and never let me experience
without you my love

suffer night....

2009-09-06T21:43:00.000-07:00

Oh Man...that bloody suffer night i ever goes before...

this night i was alone hang over till 5am sleep...

along the time passing by...

i was keep thinking of we use to be in holiday...

i still remember we always wanted to break ur cousin's call record...

there are many thing we goes together....do together...jus in a week...

isit these will ended like that...is that all???GOD!!!isit this u treat me?

time was passing a second, a minute....an hour....but jus a 1 day...

im feeling that 14 hour is so hard to goes after u say it...

im so suffer the life without u...

tis morning....10.45am... my cousin came my house find me..

i needed to wake up...1st thing i do when i wake was the PHONE!

ouch...that were 3 mesage there...

i quicky pop up n slowly see...

when i saw 1st and 2nd message of u... i realy thought that we still can...

but 3rd message mention that u r so confusing...

im know it... i really do.... i wont force o do anything...

i know we do love each other very much... jus that time play us....

what to do... i really dunno... im know u are very suffer too... i can sense it..

I LOVE YOU

Be With u - AKon

2009-09-06T06:05:00.000-07:00

I know they wanna come and separate us but they can't do us nothin
Your the one i want and i'm a continue lovin
Cause your considered wify and i'm considered husband
And i'm a always be there for you
And either way you look at it i ain't goin no where for my muffin
Cause she gonna hold it down, cant no body tell her nothin
You got the kind of love that always make a ???? fussin
And that's what gets me closer to you

And no one knows
Why i'm into you
Cause you'll never know what its like to walk in our shoes
And no one know, the things we've been through
Can never measure up to half of what i put you through
That's why we'll break through

And i don't care what they say
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
And i don't care what they do
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you

Seems like every day that go by things are gettin harder
Want to be the one that give you the whole enchilada
Cause i know what my baby like, i lean you on that prada
You ain't got to match with the shoes
All about knowing you i'm into doing things to keep her longer
Stickin together forever, watch you grow stronger
That's the way it has to be, everything problem
Keepin it always true

And no one knows
What i'm into you
Cause you'll never know what its like to walk in our shoes
And no one know, the things we've been through
Can never measure up to half of what i put you through
That's why we'll break through

And i don't care what they say
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
And i don't care what they do
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you

You are everything in my life see the joy you bring
And ain't no one i compare you to
And i know that you will never walk away from me no matter what
And that's why i plan to do the same thing for you
And i want you to know

And i don't care what they say
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
And i don't care what they do
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you

And i don't care what they say
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
And i don't care what they do
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you

today... i have been hear tis song many time.... but also is the last time i hear it...

my feeling =="

The memories of our 1 week

2009-09-06T05:46:00.000-07:00

ouch, that hurt THAT freaking HURT!!!!!!!...

today actually is a happy day, by 12pm i woke up,

mum keep push me bath bath bath , n bla bla bla for faster prepare going out for a lunch....

after all... we going to ampang for eating korean stuff.... hmmm...

in along the way.. i was driving n fetching mum and 22 fellow sister...

dammit... they keep ask me about the girl i was bring yesterday...

keep bla bla bla.... mum like so expert to know her more...quite funny in the car along to ampang...

but from tis moment start ....that not even important....

after that... i was freaking hungry n order a 1 big set beef lunch... wow... there are many dish... eat die me a..

haiz... whateva la... no mood write these stupid useless stuff le... skip it...

30/8-06/9 the days we come to so fast... but the endded time were more fast...

1 worD FUCK!!! relax... i jus expand my mood , my heart.... its FUCKING hurt aa.a...

walao.. i really din't having a freaking sad , hurt in my love story before.... jus a 1 week period we started..

but it jus very deeper n deeper i goes... every moment i think of u... jus a million needle come in my heart...

LING...i understand u.... i know ur situation... im know u even more love to being wif me...

all those i know... jus ur mum wanted u to have a good life in spm... im know.. she caring ur study..not wrong

i really do understand....some parent really do will have old mind think... so outdate.... is okay...

i accepted... cus my dad also was a outdate mind n come out those old mind thinking...

so i wont blame ur mum to let u have to do it...

i dunno i cound fight my feeling alone... i dunno i could stop thinking of... but i wish to keep thinking of u..

beeing with u... i really do have a great moment and also very happy...

i really very hope too spm over we could start over again... i really do...

but... having a sad case that im really know... when a person really do missing a person...

keep thinking of her.... keep miss her....thinking the moment with her...wow....i cant belive that..

just like many movie story show out..... u more thinking the moment wif her... hugging her...

ur mind will auto slowly bluring the image u thinking...when i think of your face in my mind...

there show out your face in blur status... i keep focus of it... but it just wont come out...

haiz...how come how come... i really do wanna think you.... WHAT the FUCK of the GOD wanna piss me

off of her.... WHY WHY WHY.... by writing tis blog moment.... my tears... they really out 1 drop 1 drop...

ohhh..ya.... i have been long time dint write blog.... as from last time i delete the blog of last time till now...

i really do dint touch blog again... what change my mind to writing it again... was u...

ofcouse i has special reason i write it again... it is memories myself to keep thinking of u...

i really wanted to fall ur bloody so deep's hole again.... that the problem i need start training of it...

i will do the best to handle care my heart to ya after spm...Mwahx my LING....

as i always do say to you.... U ALWAYS IS MY BEST....

I LOVE YOU