Jus back from suBanG JaYa... =="
ishhh... so freak~........
hmmm.... you.. see... eh pei xia... this time you no comment le hor?
i reallly do NO put you Aeroplane leh...=D
1.20pm wake up today... so sleepy... cus last night boil tat taiwan drama till end...4.10AM sleep...
after eating lunch... bored bored dei.... cus of moody... wanna out...
no much friend left... haha... u lucky i choose u out pei xia... woohoooooo... =D
5pM i reach ur house leh...[subang-dam far wehhh~] wait u half and hour there.... really so da xiu jie lo u....
hmmm...actually we aim for going 1u o tropicana city mall...but stupid jimui look like wanted to go sunway.. so like sunway meh u...always go not sienz meh...
but atlast we go to cenileisure mall...or called e-mall
we decide see G-Force babe =D started 6.50pm...
this movie... not bad... funny hamster... =D
eeeeeeeeee.... sei pei xia... so wanted keep fit... dun wan dinner... u think u r goD? all the day jus eat once..
then 8pm++ reach wangsa maju BRJ... meet yang , francis n hong...
yam har cha... that pei xia look dam bored there... then decide early go out from there lo...
she say wohhh.... when see them... the hand were shake... shake like hell wohhh... so scare meh =D hahhahhahaha but she da busy de lo... in 1 night reply 100++ message... more hardworking then business girl =="
ouch... 10pm like that... we go desa park city walk walk.... she saiD she dint go there be4 and wanted to check it out... wow.... she saiD very beutifull there... wakaka... i intro de place sure awesome de la...
at there walk har... chat har... like that also untill 11.30 jor... then send her back le...
be4 back... went to nearest her house de mamak... eat something 1st.... dam de lo... i havent eat dinner cus of ur keep fit plan... =="make me eat at mamak... t(",)t hahaha
then after that went back lu~tireD.. =D
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
1.52A.M
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
11.34pm broken heart
Wanna kick it with me?
Cool, just be yourself, that's all I can ask of you.
Wanna keep my attention.
Keep talking even if I don't look interested,
'Cause I’m looking at your lips and thinking about kissing you.
Wanna see me happy?
then smile at me for no reason, I’ll be content and curious all at once.
Wanna get me bodied?
Then put on Beyonce, 'cause that's my jam!
Wanna be my hero?
Then hold me when i cry and don't say a word,
'Cause I’m thinking about how lucky I am that GOD let me find you.
Wanna kiss my lips?
Then hold my hands and hug me tight let me know there is some type of love between us,
'Cause all I want is to feel secure.
Let me know that after the storm,
When everyone leaves me high and dry that you will be there
With a bottle of Aquafina ready to help me restore my world.
At the end of the day I’m gonna need you.
But all I want is to know that you are there for me.
LET IT enDs....
Monday, September 21, 2009
3AM..
wooT... Jus went back home from Tropicana city... dating wif both sister tonight...
hehe...actually we should at 1u watch movie de...but... dam fully people...
then decide bougth jor sis wanted de boots from ZARA shop... swt... it so exp... almost RM300... crazy... after bought... we went to nearby 1u de tropicana city...
it is new opened de shopping mall... there's GSC cinema... were new.. and less
people... nice..
so we decide to watch THE ugly true...
actually it is 18 age above de...
my small sis only form 2... lol....
my big sister at home help my little sis make up till mature...like yes man... =="
this show were so nice n funny...
teaching people in love... but as last ownself in love with her...=D
i love the part when she n him at the FLYING balloon time and dancing time...
woot...
asking:"why did you in love with me"
answered:"how did i know piece of shit of me"
"i just know I LOVE YOU"
then bloody strong kiss....wowwwwwwww.....
hahahaha....
actually i wanted to see G-force de... sisters dun want... nvm lo... but i also love this movie also what..
thanks for lovely big sister... belanja eat 2 time today =D mwahx....
3 of us...
emo... =D
missing you...
who am I thinking? -__-
Sunday, September 20, 2009
2009. 2009
Saturday, September 19, 2009
I'm so sad.
and nothing can make me feel better.
haiz.
i laugh,i smile,i being crazy just like normal.
but the pain in my heart no one know.
i miss you so much.
i need you to be with me right now.
my heart feel so pain.
but you never know.never care.
i can't stop my mind to think about you.
haiz.
why i'm so stupid?really dumb..really useless.
i hate myself.really hate myself!!!
wow... its 7am now...
Friday, September 18, 2009
I want to give up.
I want to throw it all away.
There is so much pain, hardship, and brokeness.
My life seems unorganized.
The worries, and hurt just floods within me.
A weakness, take over. All my hurt is hidden.
Hiding, behind a smile.
A joy, that brigthens a day.
A love that overtakes evil.
The reason why I never give up,
for those who areunable to withhold a their own.
Their own burden, a stand firm, for one day..
My smile and joy will give someone streght.
Will give them inspiration, the will to carry on.
Even when the time is tough, I know, there is love.
Thursday, September 17, 2009
You Found mE
i love tis old style cam~mwahxx...look cool babe..
2nd pose..
3rd pose yeah!
and the last for today is....my lovely song...
you found me..
I found God
On the corner of First and Amistad
Where the west
Was all but won
All alone
Smoking his last cigarette
I said, "Where you been?"
He said, "Ask anything".
Where were you
When everything was falling apart?
All my days
Were spent by the telephone
It never rang
And all I needed was a call
It never came
To the corner of First and Amistad
Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me
In the end
Everyone ends up alone
Losing her
The only one who's ever known
Who I am
Who I'm not, who I wanna be
No way to know
How long she will be next to me
[ The Fray Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me
Early morning
The city breaks
I've been callin'
For years and years and years and years
And you never left me no messages
Ya never send me no letters
You got some kinda nerve
Taking all my world
Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Where were you? Where were you?
Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me
Why'd you have to wait?
To find me, to find me
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
My heart is waiting you...
No matter how much space between us
But I will wait for you with hope in my heart
My love still lonely and search for your soul
Yes, it is miserable when you are not close to me
I am sure my world is better when I am in your arms
My love for you is pure, divine and grows sure in me
Your love has no condition on me and sets me free
Waiting for you to feel your gentle touch
Waiting for you to hear your loudy voice
Waiting for you to get your huge hug
Waiting for you to get your deep kiss
Yes, I find all my happiness in loving you
No matter when or how soon you will come back
But my heart is waiting for
Dota和诺儿
yesterday, i at somewhere saw this post...it meanfull... so i copy it... hehe...
DOTA really so important? =D
Dota和诺儿
Dota比赛中场休息，我忙里偷闲用Msn聊天，
这个时间，没有几个人在线
，我与其中的一个女孩聊得来，她告诉我她叫诺儿，
我说我叫宝宝。这当然不是我的真名，
只不过这样更容易哄女孩子。诺儿给我的感觉很单纯，很可爱，她总是呵呵的傻笑。
我今年22岁，他们都说我有病，
放着好好的工作不干，去打什么专业Dota，
可我是一个自由散漫惯了的人，
父母自有高额退休金，我住着自己的公寓。
我热爱Dota，我的理想是亚洲冠军，
为了它，我可以放弃一切。
我发现诺儿上网很有规律，而我也喜欢和她胡吹乱侃，
别的我不敢说，哄小女生我最在行，尤其是诺儿这种单纯的。
我喜欢气她，我总说她傻，她就回给我一个气呼呼的小脸，其实我是想说她傻的可爱。
他们说我是网上的害虫，因为我总是哄骗网上的小姑娘走到现实中来做我的女朋友
新鲜劲过了之后在SAY白白。
我不是自夸我长得多么帅，我只是在陈述事实。
我知道时机到了，我对诺儿说：“我们见面吧！”
在此之前，我已经在网上叫她一个多月的老婆了。
我坐在KFC六等她，心中暗自祈祷她不要太恐龙。
9点整，一个女孩推门而进，她似乎是披着阳光进来的，
好耀眼的光芒，那一刻我以为我见到了天使。
我呆呆地看者她在我对面坐下，
她梳着两条小辫子，额前的碎发泛着点点的光晕，我闻得到她身上力士香皂和苹果沐浴乳的味道，
她未施粉黛的脸上还带着点稚气。
“你是诺儿？”我问她。
她咬着可乐吸管“恩”了一声。
“你成年了吗？”我怎么感觉自己跟诱骗未成年人一样呢？
诺儿听了这话，抬起头盯者我，她的眼睛很大，她特认真地说：“我下个月就过二十岁生日了。”
我不知道这个世界上有没有一见钟情，
但我知道我对诺儿的这种感觉是从未有过的，很强烈，也很独特。
我不知道这个比喻是否恰当，但我就是觉得她像个粉嫩嫩的草莓蛋糕，可爱到让人想咬却又舍不得。
我就像被施了法术一般，话都有些说不连贯，
恍惚之中，看到她朝我微笑，阳光溢出来，溅落，星星点点。
我用尽了一切我所能想得出的方法才算把她“骗”到手，在我牵起她的手的那一刻，
我告诉自己，她是我的女人，一个我要保护的女人。
我照例天天打Dota，但没忘了上msn和她聊天，
偶尔在泡几个MM，我几乎天天都能收到她的留言：“宝宝你要乖，不要泡MM，天冷要加衣。”
我们战队顺利地进入了前八强，今天是总决赛，
午休，我看着干巴巴的饭盒，没有丝毫食。
走出赛区，看见大门口蹲坐着一个熟悉的身影，走过去看是诺儿。
我拍拍她，她显然吓了一跳，见是我，舒了一口气，
把一个保温饭煲递到我手里。
我接过后，她慌忙把手藏到身后，
可是我还是看见她手上被烫的水泡。
盒里的饭有点凉了，我问她：“等很久了了？”
“对啊，你手机关掉了。”她嘟着嘴。
“不是告诉你不要来嘛。来，让老公抱抱，累了吧？”我有点心疼。
“我不来你又饿肚子，你一点都不乖，还挑食。”
我吃着盒里的饭，诺儿坐在我身边，紧张地问：“好吃吗？好吃吗？”
我大口大口的扒着饭，说实话，挺难吃的，
可是我能想象得出这个连袜子都不会洗的女孩是怎
样笨手笨脚地为我做第一顿饭。
心中是久违了的感动。我笑着说：“老婆的爱心午餐当然好吃了，你看我不是全部都吃光了吗？”
诺儿听了一脸满足地笑着，站起来就走。
“宝贝你去哪儿啊？”我问她。
“回家呗。“
“别急，我带你去一个地方。”我把她领进赛区，我从没领女孩儿见过朋友，更别说是赛区。
队友们见到诺儿都好奇极了，“小嫂子、小嫂子”地叫着，弄得她脸蛋都通红的，
队友们都跑来跟我打趣，我心里明白，我是真的爱上她了。
msn上，我问她，“诺儿，你嫁给我好吗？”
她还是呵呵地傻笑，“好啊。以前别人说什么要娶我，我觉得特恐怖，但是我现在突然想嫁人了。”
嗯，诺儿，相信我，等我攒够钱让你做最风光的新娘，我们就结婚。
虽然我们队没有拿到第一，但对于我们这支刚组成不久的队伍来说，
全省第二的成绩已经是非常好的了，所以我决定继续努力，非打第一不可。
Dota的比赛越来越多，我也越来越忙，我忘了多久没想过诺儿了，
我总是比赛到很晚，偶尔在msn上看到她，她也总是很沉默，
我不知道她怎么了。现在想起来，才知道是自己不对，
因为我从来没有关心过她是不是开心，过得好不好。
一天，
她说：“你能陪我说会话吗？”
我说：“不行啊，我现在在联系比赛正在等电话。而且马上要开赛了。”
“就一会儿也不行吗？”
“诺儿乖。”
“Dota对你来说真的很重要吗？”
“是。”
“那我呢？难道我就一点不重要吗？”
“也重要。”
“那我和Dota哪个更重要呢？”
“Dota。”我没有骗她。
很久，她的msn头像都没有再晃动。
几天后，我看到她给我的留言：“我不知道能不能等到自己比dota更重要的那一天了，以后你要照顾好自己．．．．．．”
我觉得她像是在说傻话，没看完就关了msn。
几个月后，打完dota回到家已经是精疲力竭了，倒在床上一动不想动。
这时手机响起来，我不想接，可它却响个没完没了。
我一看是诺儿的号，就没好气地接起来说：“不是叫你这几天别打电话给我吗？你不知道我有多累……”
电话那一端传来一阵怒吼：“……你他 [ 粗话自动过滤系统 ] 还算不算是男人啊？”
不是诺儿，我一愣，“你谁呀你？”
“你甭管我是谁，明天诺儿出殡，你要也算个人，就来看她最后一眼。”
诺儿？出殡？什么跟什么呀？我还想再问下，电话戛然挂断。
忽然一股恐怖感占据了我，我拼命的回拨，很久才有人接起来，是个很苍老的声音，“你找……”
“诺儿呢？”
“她……不在了……”声音里明显带着哭腔。
我的脑袋轰的一下，难道，诺儿她真的出事了？
哪天，我看见诺儿被他们抬了出来，她脸上还带着微笑，可天使般的微笑再也泛不出光晕了，
诺儿的朋友看我的眼神分明是仇视的，恨不得吃了我。
诺儿的妈妈告诉我，诺儿有血小板减少症，家里人什么都不让她做，
生怕她不小心弄破了手指或是什么地方，血流不止。
原以为治好了，可后来不知怎的，血小板又突然下降，心脏功能也开始衰竭。
前几天她突然精神很好，我们都明白那意味着什么，
她说她想听听你的声音，打电话给你，可是关机，
她说你一定在比赛呢。有人说去找你，可诺儿不让，她说比赛对你很重要，
她怕你生气，说着说着自己就哭了，我们也都跟着哭，
她说肯定有一天你会明白，她比dota重要，可她等不到了……诺儿妈妈有抹起眼泪来。
我靠在医院太平间的墙上，想哭没泪。
我好几天没打dota了，呆呆地看着诺儿的msn形象，
自从诺儿走了以后，我整个人好像被抽走了力量。身和心都特别疲惫。
我打开诺儿的msn才知道，里面只有我一个人的号。
我注意到她的资料里有一个网址，打开是个心情驿站，有各种各样的故事，其中有篇文章的署名是诺儿。
“不敢想象，我就那么不可救药地爱上了他。
我喜欢他的温柔，也喜欢他假装凶巴巴的样子，
我想如果有一天他向我求婚，我一定会嫁给他。
我最近很不开心，我喜欢听他说话，
可他却连话都不愿意和我说了，因为他很忙，他要打dota。
他再也不叫我小傻瓜了，他从没说过爱我，也没送过花给我，可我还是喜欢他。
有一天我告诉他江边涨水了，他说以后陪我看，我很高兴
有一天我看见一只很可爱的小狗，他答应我，我们以后也会有一只，也叫诺儿，我很高兴。
他说过几天陪我去看电影，放风筝，我特别开心，
虽然这些都还没有实现，我相信总有一天会的。但我恐怕等不了那么久了。
他说dota比我重要，我没生气，因为这是实话，
可是我很伤心，所以我偷偷地哭了。
我想我还不够坚强，我做的还不够好，
医生说我过不到下一个生日了，也就是4月4日，
他还不知道我的生日呢！不过这也没关系。
我又虚弱了，刚打了几个字就很累，真的很没用。
我知道他有很多女朋友，
这样也好，我走了，他不会伤心
虽然我是那样想嫁给他，
我一直盼他送我玫瑰，哪怕只一支，
以前有很多人送我，可我没收，因为那代表爱情，
我想我可能等不到他送我的那一天了，所以我偷偷买了一朵送给自己，
我想我写什么他永远都看不见了，所以我可以随心所欲地敲打文字，
我刚才打电话给他，但他关机了。
那个讨厌的声音一直重复‘对不起，您拨打的电话已关机’
我好想，真的好想再和他说说话，哪怕就一分钟，听听他的声音也好，
我们好久都没见面了，我每天都好想他。
真没出息，又哭了，
唉，其实我真的好放心不下他，
他玩游戏时间长了眼睛会疼，我买了眼药水却没法给他，
还有，他挑食……”
文章没有写完，想是她累了，结尾有一个FlasLASH，我点击Play，优雅的声音在空空的房间里回荡。
“静静地陪你走了好远好远/
连眼睛红了都没有发现/
听着你说你现在的改变/看着我依然最在你的笑脸/
这条旧路依然没有改变/以往的每次路过都是晴天/
想起我们有过的从前/泪水就一点点开始蔓延……每当我闭起眼/
我总是看见/
你的诺言全部都会实现/
我亲过你的脸/你已经不在我身边/
我还是祝福你过的好一点/ 断开的情线/我不要做断点/只想杂睡前听见你的蜜语甜言……”
Flash制作得有点粗糙，可我那憋了很久的眼泪还是滴了下来，画面的结尾还有一行行的小字。
“想听你说爱我，一声也好；
想接受你送的玫瑰，一朵也好；
想再多点时间爱你，哪怕只一天；
可是现在，我的手都已经好颤抖，好想再见你一面。”
我一个人做在漆黑的房间里，终于大哭起来，
我就那样错过了你，我最爱的女人
还来不及宠你，还来不及实现诺言，还来不及让你做我最美丽的新娘。
该死的dota，我连你最后一面都没见上，我真该死。
是的，我终于明白了你是最重要的，可惜你不能在等我了。
今年清明没下雨，我放弃了dota，做了白领，我一定会要你做我最风光的新娘。
“生日快乐，小傻瓜。”
每日礼拜我都会来这里，我只想和你说说话，
纯白饿墓碑宛如你的纯洁。
微风像你的发丝轻佛过我的脸，想念我那依然最爱的你的笑脸。
朋友、家人都惊讶于我的改变
，我不抽烟了，不打dota了，不上网了，
养了一只和你一样可爱的小狗，
像当初我们说好的那样，叫它诺儿，
我只想再和你说说话，再送你最美的玫瑰
Saturday, September 12, 2009
12/09/09 my peacefull legs.... eeeeeee....
unhappy face! FCUK =D
laught ge lin ah? =="
cool babe!
apa ini? =D
stare what jek? =D
look aren't deliscous leh..
sedap ni......after eating.. we sit here dam long for chit chat.. =="
suddenly phone rang... melissa: 你们在哪啊？我又一个人了...
lol... what to do... also almost 6pm le... needed to walk back TS too...
then walk walk walk walk again... stomach full le feeling dun wanna walk leh...
haiz.. then take a long time go back TS find tat babi mel... =D
wow,,,, grats for hai hong.... mel say april was coming n reach soon..
hai hong say got chance to see april le...
but wait dam long... almost 40 minute we wait.... haiz... actually dam sienz...
see for what jek... 1 girl jek ma...
when the time come... she came le.. with her bF..
ouch... is that her...? from her pic dam big different la...
look so...eeeeeeeeee... dun wan see... we 3 in heart know la...
150-153cm only?
hai hong say wont visit her blog again... LOLS
yang has no comment.. =D
for me... see or no see also nothing special.. .human being 1 jek...
dam miss ling alot...
t.t
when we wanna when to car park after seeing tat aren't special girl..
yang say yun fang at LOW YAT!
hai hong wanted to back de... but looked to stupid yang face... we know lo...
n yang say wanna buy a pendrive too... ok lo... lazy walk... drive to low yat ... and needed to pay again.. =[ but.. is hai yang pay this time... hahahaha
when we done all stuff... n buy le hai yang staff.. see got luck meet up yun fang anot...
no luck man.... she dont wan to tell him where she was... hahaha.... from top to ground floor...
cant find her oh... haha
see his sad sad face... back luuuuuuuuu....
fucking leg is dam pain man... 9pm leh... n i still needed to drive.... need press oil de a...
really so tired la the leg....
on the way back... trafic jam alot... FCUK
my leg so pain still jam so long.... lucky is auto car....
errrrr... after sending them home... mum call up... i answered..
tell me that key hide at where... for let me in house... ahhhhhh... i got key la.. still hide meh..
but... i got a feeling that time... feel like dont wan back home sin... but i hav no wa to go wohhh.
plus that pair of leg so tired... no choice... back home on9 lo...
errrrrr..... after bath... on9 jor n see pps 1 hour... hai yang got a big problem...
i think i dont wan mention here... >"<>
francis so proud of u.... hehe.. fetch him wohhh... =D
me also want de... but my leg really cant move le... =[
then last thing i do is blogging lo... kay la... write so long jor.....
time to end... see movie... i wont so fast sleep geh... atleast 4am again =D
also needed to say... I LOVE YOU LING
oop...forgot mention something.... just now see your blog...
suddenly hear a song... i really been 1 week dint hear le... so miss it...
cus... it mean alot to me.... but no use too.... forget it bah >"<
what i can do is jus wait....
Thursday, September 10, 2009
爱不疚
爱不疚
收藏在眼眸 常徘徊左右 爱猜到没有
愉快玩笑後 能全然退後 你开心就够
这种感觉太亲厚 讲一千句也不够
假使讲了你听到後 或会走
这种恋爱太罕有 不须真正拥有
成全 衷心祝福然後 就放手
放手 放开所有 彼此更自由
放手 其实我绝非爱得不够
放手 豁出所有 还有这个好友
已经 已经足够
遥远是宇宙 静静在背後 去看守就够
这种感觉太亲厚 讲一千句也不够
即使一刹有过冲动 挽你手
这种恋爱太罕有 不须真正拥有
成全 多舍不得仍然 是放手
放手 放开所有 彼此更自由
放手 其实我绝非爱得不够
放手 豁出所有 还有这个好友
已经 已经足够
放手 我的牵挂 找不到尽头
放手 期望你幸福甚麽都有
也许 爱很深厚 然而我早看得透
放手 至可拥有
Monday, September 7, 2009
without u...
I need you my love
Without you I can not live
I need you my love
Without you my heart is incomplete
I need you my love
Without you my love is meaningless
I need you my love
Without you my eyes will not closed for sleep
I need you my love
Without you my words are speechless
I need you my love
Without you I am lost in this world
I need you my love
Without you I will lose my eternity
I need you my love
Without you I am weak
I need you my love
Without you I am nothing
I need you my love and never let me experience
without you my love
Sunday, September 6, 2009
suffer night....
Be With u - AKon
Your the one i want and i'm a continue lovin
Cause your considered wify and i'm considered husband
And i'm a always be there for you
And either way you look at it i ain't goin no where for my muffin
Cause she gonna hold it down, cant no body tell her nothin
You got the kind of love that always make a ???? fussin
And that's what gets me closer to you
And no one knows
Why i'm into you
Cause you'll never know what its like to walk in our shoes
And no one know, the things we've been through
Can never measure up to half of what i put you through
That's why we'll break through
And i don't care what they say
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
And i don't care what they do
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
Seems like every day that go by things are gettin harder
Want to be the one that give you the whole enchilada
Cause i know what my baby like, i lean you on that prada
You ain't got to match with the shoes
All about knowing you i'm into doing things to keep her longer
Stickin together forever, watch you grow stronger
That's the way it has to be, everything problem
Keepin it always true
And no one knows
What i'm into you
Cause you'll never know what its like to walk in our shoes
And no one know, the things we've been through
Can never measure up to half of what i put you through
That's why we'll break through
And i don't care what they say
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
And i don't care what they do
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
You are everything in my life see the joy you bring
And ain't no one i compare you to
And i know that you will never walk away from me no matter what
And that's why i plan to do the same thing for you
And i want you to know
And i don't care what they say
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
And i don't care what they do
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
And i don't care what they say
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
And i don't care what they do
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
